Fear turned in to Creativity

When I checked yes to the hybrid English class back in July, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. One would think that I would ask friends already in the college what it was like, but I didn't think of that until after. I figured it would be your average English class, just like all my friends' English classes that they take once a week at other schools but I was dead wrong.
From the very first day, this class has been making me come out of my comfortable bubble, frustrating me to no end, and making me be the most creative that I have ever been. The first day I wanted to die when Mr. McCann asked us each to tell an urban legend. This is no big deal, but I get shy and hate having to participate in class, I'd rather just sit and enjoy and join in when I feel ready. But he made us all dive right in, which is pretty much what every class and assignment is like. Then the first blog came and it was exhilarating. Yoy may think that I'm a dork or exaggerating but I've been in Catholic school for twelve years and there has always been a Catholic moral mask over anything a student wishes to write. Then I came Drexel and my first writing was on how much fun I had at Irish Weekend, drinking with my boyfriend. When Project 1 came around I wanted to shoot my computer night after night, staring at the one page I wrote and being stuck there. I had no idea how to make an argument and couldn't grasp how McCann did out of a firedrill, let alone have someone else review it! I was never so nerved up over a project, let alone a paper in my entire school career. I was convinced that I was going to fail this class miserably and then I recieved my peer reviews and they made me feel so good about the crap that I had written. I then finished my paper with no problem, seeing arguments everywhere I looked.
This class has scared me, frustrated me, and has some how taught me in three classes more than I've ever learned throughout twelve years of English courses. I feel so much more creative and free to write what I want to write about. Sometimes I read things back and can't believe I wrote them, I just think they sound to mature to be written by me. At times I feel overwhelmed because we don't get our "to do list" until Thursday or Friday and I have to run around fitting it all in, in between work and other priorities, but everything we've done is making me grow so much as a writer, and makes the class much more enjoyable. Also the text book is great, easy to follow and actually a help when writing.